Any and Everything

I remember this. I don’t miss this… the random crying. The jolts of unexplained pain. Sometimes. I’m ok, ok sometimes. I’m so good at pretending to be okay that even I believe it for a brief moment, at times. It’s like I forget. But, the pain when reality hits me is so harsh I can’t control the emotions that I feel. That is the best way I can explain it…

I have always been more comfortable alone. I even prefer to grieve alone. Ive always been this way. It isn’t that I’m strong. I just choose not to show people when I’m weak.

I’m not in shock this time… I’m in pain. It is so extreme that I can feel it in my bones.