Any and Everything

May 8, 2024

Today has been a pretty good day. I honestly have no complaints. Some craziness has come to light over the last couple of days. Nothing that bothers me of course. You all know that I have personally been done with Nate. No love lost there. I seriously have no animosity or anything. Well, I have had a few of our mutual friends reach out to tell me he is suddenly in a relationship. I am happy for him. I really am. We all deserve to find happiness and realistically I knew he wasn’t my person. I didn’t look forward to seeing him over the last several months. That spoke volumns to me.

On a different note. The Deacon and I are talking again. We never left things on a bad note we just live so far from eachother. That honestly made my week. I have certain affinities towards him that that I can’t really explain other than I like him. I like the way he feels, smells, carries himself, and treats me. So… I think I’ll keep him for a while. He is a really good person. Still doesn’t mean that I am in any way attached emotionally to him. I think that over the past month I have proven to myself that I do not attach to people very easily or often. At the moment, that is a perk for me.

I will say that I am so bad with this dating stuff. It is like I don’t just date one person at a time I really try to. They seem to come in two’s and I am determined to pick one I really am. I met a persistent man that I almost didn’t go out with and he turned out to be awesome. Awkward much in the same ways that I am. I don’t know if that made things more or less awkward in the long term. We are going out again. I’ll call him Z. When I say I almost didn’t go… I almost cancelled the day of because of a miscommunication. I feel like that would have been a loss on my part.

I have also been talking to T. He is a very nice man and I feel like we connect. I can not say for sure. We go on our first actual date soon. I do look forward to it. I will have to weigh in on that later after I figure some stuff out.

I know this has been like a dating recap but honestly that is the newest developments in my life. I suppose that is a refresthing thing considering things could always be going downhill. Hell at anytime things could go downhill. But right now it has been just my normal schedule and I am loving it. There is something to be said about the benefits of having a schedule that you stick to. I don’t mean like having to be anal about a timeline in your life but to have a basic idea of what it is you are doing on a daily basis. That feels good. I like that feeling.

Another amazing feeling is the fact that I got my chair back today. I found an old wood rocking chair for $25 at my local thrift store. I took it and got it reupholstered. It is significant for me because in all of my life I have never really picked out a piece of furniture by my self, let alone chosen a color or fabric for something. So this is MY piece of furniture and it is just a neat feeling… a special feeling. It makes this a special find for me. A first of many little treasures I hope. I am sure I will accumulate many over time.

Guess it is time for me to finally get some rest. Have an amazing night yall.