Any and Everything

February 19, 2024

Today I have come to the conclusion that it is time to play chess with these boys and yes I said boys. I am gonna be pulling back and if they leave they leave. I’ll find another. I don’t do well with lack of communication because I am an adult and adults communicate… well mature ones do.

I have never really implemented this but I have never dealt with men directly who act like that. It’s ok I’ll make em wonder what I am doing. Funny how things can change over the matter of a day. But it dawned d on me today that I don’t need them at all. And if there is more work than play involved it is time to cut it off.

Today was an ok day. Drove to an eye specialist and hopefully at the next appointment we will figure out if one of my twins will need an eye procedure. That is scary. Even though the risks are super low and the benefits are super high. I worry.

I can’t wait until February is over. I am so ready for summer to breeze in. I am ready to travel a bit with the kids and go see family. I need it and so do the kids. I need to get away from here and people here.

I am seriously considering just cutting a few folks out of my life because they are poor communicators and I am looking for a strong group. It is sad that anyone ever feels like doing that to people but it is a reality that we face. We can keep trying and getting ignored or we can move the hell on being happy. I choose the later here lately.

There are the people that I wish would communicate with me more and the people who need to give me some space. There is no in between. It gets frustrating at times. Especially in my position, where I am trying to figure things out.

Believe it or not I am actually tired. I guess I leave you with my main thought from today. Game on, because that is my stance now. I won’t play with people’s emotions but I’ll be damned if I allow them to play with mine. Maybe there are used to people being ok with all that. Well I must be a different breed because I am not.