Any and Everything

February 10, 2024

I slept so well last night I can not explain it but I did welcome and enjoy it. G went home to eat. I have no idea but he does that sometimes. It could be that I probably don’t keep what he likes. Who knows and I don’t really care. He will be back, he always comes back. He is exactly to a “T” what I like physically. So for now, I will wait.

Everyone always asks me what I am doing for the weekend and honestly it is usually nothing but hanging out around the house and cooking. That is the best part of the weekends I am going to cook up a storm, watch movies, and sleep. We are taking Sunday off from church. We need the extra day to sleep. It will be nice we have had such a busy week this past week. I personally need to catch up on my rest. Although I am going to actually go work on a bit of school right now.

Well it is after lunch and I have had a pretty good day so far. I love those days in which you have no complaints. I am gonna get some wings going here in a couple of hours. I love cooking and I am so glad I am doing it more again. I experience the “What do I want for dinner” question every night and the answer is often “I don’t know.” I’m getting my decision making skills back. It is one thing to been alone for a while and another for one to be with someone for as long as i was. I am so used to asking for someone’s opinion. Not that he always gave me one but it was just normal and felt comfortable.

I am learning this is all me now. I mean it is the kids too but it is me that is the primary decision maker. I’m not worried about it. It was my position before but like I said Josh was here. I like it actually. I always have my kids in mind when I am making decisions. That is my number one priority right now. I’m embracing it, if you will. I don’t have someone who is supposed to be in my corner criticizing my every move anymore. Not that this makes me happy. But over these 6 months I have come to realize my stress level is much better now. I am not always stressed and that is a great feeling. It took a while to shed the “walking on eggshells” feeling.

Well I am going to take my leave and watch Valley Girl (the old one) with my child. Have an amazing weekend ❤️