Any and Everything

Today was just another day. I had to take the older girls to the doctor again. This time to be tested for the flu. Just like their little sister they have flu B. No one seems like it is bothering them too much so that is a positive and I don’t have it as of yet so I am hoping to keep it that way.

I love that the doctor we chose is out in the country. I love the drive… the solitude on the road. All of us enjoy listening to music and we get to really zone out and enjoy this time we have. I don’t ever get complaints when it comes to the girls going to the doctor. The girls made themselves at home in my bed of course as usual…

Today while I was rummaging through some of Josh’s things in his truck, I came across a cherry jolly rancher. Which I know doesn’t seem like much but he would always keep candy in random places. He like to grab a piece here and there. Well cherry just so happens to by my favorite. That made me feel some sort of a way. Not like he put that there for me or anything like that.

It reminded me of him for sure. That it did. I really did stop myself for a moment when I found it. I had to process the moment. I didn’t cry until much later. While the kids were napping. I know the next question is, “Did you eat it?” Why yes I did. It is my favorite

one… why would I not eat it. I don’t aim to hold on to it like it is a token of some sort. No, it is just a piece of candy that held a memory for me. One that made me have all the feelings… not just one. I had all of the feelings one can have. It can be very emotional… even over something that is seemingly unimportant.

Most of the time it isn’t even about the actual object. It is more of the emotion derived from the object. That is how it is for me. And I have a memory saved by sharing it with you all.

It is just the little things in life that really make it what it is. I am starting to understand that on a whole new level now. It is hard to explain to some people. Even the ones who think they get it… I am glad I am finally starting to slow down and really appreciate everything around me.

I am getting restless again in the physical realm. I don’t have any plans to do anything about that one way or the other. Well I am going to hang out and enjoy my Friday night. I hope you all do the same.