Any and Everything

January 18, 2024

Yesterday was a nightmare. It got so cold that it had drained my truck battery. Luckily, even though my head gasket is about to blow on my Jeep, I was able to jump it off. Then of course my daughter’s dog tore up a trash bag my daughter left outside instead of putting in in the back of the truck. We have to drive it 2-3 acres to the trash can. I don’t know her logic at times. After having to pick it up every time I am sure she will learn.

I then took twin A and my youngest to the Dr. Twin A has an ear infection and my youngest has Flu B. So that is just what we are dealing with. They are both doing well. Twin B had to go get scans this past Monday. We got the results today and everything looked good so I assume we are settling on acid reflux being the culprit. 

Yesterday I also finished my school work for the week. I am so happy to be done with Stats. I love school again. Funny how that works. I feel like these classes are a breeze. It is a breath of fresh air as far as I am concerned.

I’ve been reflecting and trying to dig to see how I really feel about the situation that ended with G. I came to the conclusion that I tried to make myself feel sad because I thought I should… But I don’t feel sad. Maybe somewhere in me, the fact that it isn’t like me to not care, I felt like it was wrong. Not caring must be wrong. But it isn’t I now feel like I just don’t care and that is how I feel. Once I accepted that I started to feel a lot better. I am starting to understand a different layer of myself. Some used to say I was too caring. It isn’t that I have lost that. I think I am finally reading situations for what they are, as I should have all along.

I wanted to get that out there in the open because it is important that I keep a transparency here that I may not have everywhere else. Important for me. Accountability, reflection, and growth are a package deal. I just want to be in a good place. I’m getting there by being open and honest. Some of you have noticed I usually answer questions honestly too. I just won’t lie. It takes too much effort, and for what? Nothing. I’m not easily offended either. This is truly a good therapy for me.

I really appreciate everyone who takes the time to read these ramblings : ) It means a lot to me and I always read all of the comments. Thank you so much!