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MsAshHole

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JE 46: The Path

January 10, 2024 Today is a day. Our power was from monday at 11pm till Tuesday at 12pm. With kids that equals chaos. Mine hate when the power goes off. So they all slept in my bed, I didnt’ sleep at all. Having 3 kids and myself in a california king still makes for very…

January 10, 2024

Today is a day. Our power was from monday at 11pm till Tuesday at 12pm. With kids that equals chaos. Mine hate when the power goes off. So they all slept in my bed, I didnt’ sleep at all. Having 3 kids and myself in a california king still makes for very little space.

Overall I am having a good week. Yesterday threw me off a bit but I am back on track. I slacked on getting Christmas put away so today I am taking down all of the trees. That is the last thing I need to do besides putting my boxes up.

Lets talk X… I officially have a stalker… Again. Honestly these attacks didn’t begin till I blocked his main account. Like I can’t tell from the way one types that it is the same person… I am not dense. Observing is something that I have become very good at over the years. Part of the side effects of being in an abusive relationship. I learned long ago how to read a room.

Some people think I am shy and reserved. I am reserved but I am not shy. Most of the time I don’t talk a lot because I am observing the situation. the other part is because I don’t want to interact with some people.

I thought about Josh this morning and despite the abuse I still miss him. The twins have been giving me such issues when it comes to going to school. I know they are hurt and I’m sure they miss thier dad but life has to go on. We need these things to help us move forward. I know they will be ok. I have them in therapy. I am doing the best I can by myself. Not that Josh helped me much but at the end of the day he was here. I feel the loss and I understand that they do too. I can’t imagine losing my parent at 14 or 8. And he died just shy of the girls 14th birthday.

I lost my mom when I was 31 and I think about it often. There was a lot of unresolved issues that linger with me now. I believe that you never get over things you just work through them and the road is long and bumpy. It is the only way to really get passed trauma.

I see the struggle in us… the ones that pretend things are okay until they finally are.

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  1. wmmitchell17

    The way I see it is the only way to deal with these stalkers is to continue to block their accounts and ignore them. They feed off the attention, so by confronting them you are only satisfying their desire for your attention. We as your caring follower hate their attacks on you even more than you do, it’s painful 😢 Just block these assholes and keep them off your feed. We know you’re tuff enough to defend yourself, but it is painful to watch❤️

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  2. craigparrish93

    It’s going to be ok . Better everyday. I feel for you and kids 🙏. And they weirdo. Had gut feeling about that too.

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  3. Roger

    Ignore the stalker. If you know someone in law enforcement you trust then reach out. Dont be afraid to reach out to women’s groups. They know the resources. I lost my mom at 17.Took about 25 years to get back on track.
    Kids are resilient. Kids are fickle. Do your best and it may all work out for you. I’ll put you and your family in my prayers.
    Roger

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    1. MsAshHole

      I’m so sorry for your loss. And Ty for sharing. I really appreciate it.

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      1. Roger

        Im hiddenagenda on X

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