Any and Everything

January 6, 2023

I debated if I should even write today but I did end up having a post in me. Today is the first day that I have truly felt numb. Like I just don’t care about stupid things. Used to I would be all in my emotions about everything. I’d say I overthink a lot of things and I may be a borderline empath. I think it is due to all the trauma. I tend to be extra perceptive most of the time.

As I sit here typing and watching reruns of walking dead with a friend. I feel content. But at the same time numb. That is the best way I can explain it. Not numb in a bad way. Maybe it is a good thing and the natural order of healing.

Saturdays are for staying in bed and hanging out with friends. I have a bottle of wine I entertained opening but I really don’t drink often and I don’t feel like drinking tonight. I just don’t, no real reason at all. I look over at my company and I feel like I’m heading in the right direction for once. I’m having a good day today.

I was a bit emotional earlier but I got over that quickly. It is funny how you are capable of going from feeling broken to okay in the matter of minutes… Maybe that is just me. I am learning to control my emotions better than anyone I know. It is not easy but I am grateful. The kids help me a lot. I have tweaked another short story I am going to add tonight.

Have an amazing Saturday. You are all wonderful human beings never forget that.