Any and Everything

You know Christmas was my favorite holiday… It still is but, this one is harder than the rest. Josh is gone. We met on Christmas. A mutual friend of ours brought him to my house Christmas night and we just hit it off. We were so young.

Today we did the norm Grinch punch for the kids and spiked spiced apple cider for me. So nice to have an adult beverage while the kids rip things to shred. It just seems natural.

I put the cinnamon rolls in right after presents. The whole house smells of cinnamon rolls and sugar. I love that smell. It can’t be a candle that simulates a smell… No that is a travesty.

I decided that this year we would have a few trays to munch on through out the day. We always do our Christmas meal the night before. But I love leftovers so it works out. Today was good… Harder than I thought it would be.

I miss him. I hate that he is missing this. There is so much he will miss in life. There is so much the girls will miss out on. But I made Christmas fun for them and that was the whole point. I don’t even think they sensed I was down and that was the goal. Overall everyone got the things they wanted and needed. It was a good year.

I hope you all had an amazing Christmas! I’m happy for all of you who didn’t miss anyone this year. To those of you who are missing someone, I am so sorry and my heart is with you today. It isn’t easy. All we can do is be there for each other.