Any and Everything

Is it too soon to let go? I haven’t. Yet, I am just curious. I don’t know how to mourn almost two decades. I just don’t know how to process it all. It is so deep and internal. I hate it. I hate not knowing and not having control of that realm of my being. It is hard to express things that you have no definition for. Here I am trying to no avail.

Life is just a pit no one makes it out alive. And we never will understand everything. Why is that? We can know what’s right and know that it is right but we still don’t comply. I don’t want to date. I don’t want to live with anyone ever again. That is how I feel but I will do everything’s I can to complete my goals. I want to finish school that is my number one goal. I will complete school.

I am proud of myself. School isn’t easy but I’m determined to succeed.