Any and Everything

This broken world that I live in knows no end. Disappointment follows me like a lost puppy. Josh is gone it hurts to say that. It’s almost livable when I pretend he is just away but then reality sinks in. No matter what.

How will these holidays be? I’ll do my best to make it one of the best for the girls. It’s going to be some kind of torture for me.

I don’t know what kind of hell it will be but I am preparing for a full on Hell. Internally of course. All internally… the battle is real and ongoing until the day we die. War will never be over. Battles won by both sides.. Always conflickting, always an internal conflict… neverending.