Any and Everything

Today is a good day so far besides Ari complaining but that is normal. Today we go to Huntsville to see Brit and them. I need this getaway I really do.

I wouldn’t say that I feel happy… that would be a stretch. Part of me wants to lay in bed wallowing all weekend at home. That is why I HAVE to go. I need to stop wallowing in my own pain for a bit and company helps. I am happy that I reconnected with Brit.

Friends are a godsend for real. I would be miserable without that glimmer of light at the end of the tunnel. I need light in my life. Right now I’ve had a lot of dark days. I hate dark days. All I do is lay in bed and do the bare minimum. It’s been almost a month since he passed and I’m still in a kindof shock. Not like with Robert this is different. I’m more present than back then. I want to be 100% present. I am working on that. It’s hard.