Any and Everything

February 5, 2024

I have had such a good weekend. The date was awesome. He is a really nice guy. The sparks weren’t there for me. I knew of that possibility. There is always that. I really do base a lot on chemistry. I have just amazing sparks with G. I think I would like to keep him for a bit. I have to implement some changes in that case and I am not sure I want to yet. That should be my sign right? If I felt like that was 100% the right thing to do, then there would be no question. I guess what I need to do is have a conversation with him and see where he stands. Oh I don’t mean getting tied down. Maybe a chat about exclusivity may be in order. That means I will have to comply as well, which trust me after this weekend I have no qualm about… not one bit.

I feel so weird being so open about things I normally keep to myself. I will say there is a certain freedom in it all. There is also a vulnerability in it as well. Anything I say can be interpreted a million different ways. I told myself I would not sugarcoat anything and I refuse to. I have had some crazy dreams. I wish I could remember the extent of them other than they were “crazy” but it is what it is. I hope they aren’t repeats. If they are I’ll be able to tell you what they are about in a few days. If not…. Then they are lost forever.

Kids… what can I say about kids… It was Monday and no one wanted to go to school except my youngest. But, that is an everyday thing around here. Once I get them there I leave them unless they are dying and I am told by the nurse they are dying. Sounds mean… I don’t care. They have manipulated and taken advantage of me enough. I have my own things that I need to get done while they are in school. Before too long it will be spring and then summer break.

These days are just going by as of now I will see G again on Friday. I am counting the days down. I really can’t wait to see him. I get excited at the very thought of being with him. Enough about that. I am just typing whatever pops into my mind. That is, after all, the point of me doing this. Therapy for me 😊.

It is just about time to go get the kids so I will take my leave. I hope y’all have a fabulous week!