Any and Everything

I hope today goes on without a hitch. I’m so bleh sometimes. Not today though. My brain has tried to go to that place but I refuse. I found Josh’s watch the other day. The band still smells like him. I’ve listened to his voicemail too many times to count. I don’t have answers as to why except the lonliness.

Single is so weird… it’s like they hear you are widowed and come out of the woodwork. I am not ready at all to move forward emotionally and I’m honest about that. It is going to be a long while… A very long while. That isn’t even on my list of things to do in the next year.

I know how to keep myself busy. I am busy… all the time. I have no time but for my kids and myself. I’m content with that.